Freedom

I receive a miss call from my dad at 9.35am, tried to call him back but he did no answer. After the medical microbiology lab session, call my dad and again. He told me that grandma pass away this morning at 8.50am. I was completely shocked and felt a sudden heart pain. I feel like crying but my tears doesn't seems to be flowing out. During lesson, I wasn't able concentrate well in class, I was a bit distracted.

After class, I quickly complete my RJ and rush down to my grandma house. When I reach there, I saw my uncles, aunt and cousins already there. My elder cousin bring me to pray my grandma and I waited for my parents and 2 bros to come over.

While I was sitting at the side, I consistenly look at my grandma picture and feel sad. I don't know why? But is it because that I did not spend enough time with her or did not get to see her for the last time this morning. Maybe I should feel happy for her. She already 86 and she was suffering (the doctor suspects that she have liver cancer). My mum and I went to burn some paper money for grandma and we said pray along too, hoping that will take away her sins that she made when she is alive and wanting her to go in peace. While I was at the wake, there are times that I feel that how come my uncles acted that way and feel so disappointed in them.

My dad continues to stay at the wake and the rest of my family went home. When I reach home, I qucikly study for my genomics ut while waiting for my turn to bath. However, the information does not seem not be going in. I was afraid that my genomics ut would failed. I will be rushing down to the funeral after the genomics ut as the ritual starts at 7pm.

PS: I really appericate for the concerns that were given by my friends.