Freedom

Today, I was late for CO practice at BBCO. Luckily, they are discussing about the concert that will be held on July. I feel that I am so dead, I still haven even master all the songs yet. I felt so disappointed of myself.... Everyone has improved so much especially Ling Zhi and the Oink Oink family members, Genevieve and Randal. I am the only one has not made any improvements.

After the practice session has ended, Ling Zhi and the Oink Oink family members stay back for extra practice except for me as I am going to visit my grandma at the nursing home who has just admitted into the hospital yesterday. My uncle told us that she will be discharged from the hospital today. I am so worry about her condition.

When I reach home, mummy said that we will not be able to visit grandma as she is still in the hospital. since there is a H1N1 flu going on, it is not advise us to go to the hospital. I was quite disappointed.

I was really shocked after what mummy tell me later on. It isn't about the H1N1 flu but is the seriousness of grandma condition. The doctor says that grandma has bacteria infection on her gall bladder and if the bacteria spread and goes into her heart, she will DIE!!!

Futuremore, the doctor even wants us to come out with a decision, whether we should allow the doctor to save her when this really happens (TOUCH WOOD!!!!). If we allow the doctor to save her, she be having a tube stuck at her nose or become a vegetarain.

I don't know what my uncles and aunt decision, although I know my daddy decision. His decision is not to save grandma since she will still suffered after that!!! I know it is hard to let your family members go, it hurts a lot. Although, my daddy did not say anything but I feel that deep down he is in pain.

I really don't know what to do. She is my only grandma left. I really don't want anything to happen to her. Please god, let her live!!! Don't let her suffered in pain!!!!