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Friday, November 21, 2008 ,11:38 PM


What’s really got into me? Out of no reason, I feel a sudden sadness and emptiness rush into me and fill my heart full. I start to begin to feel that life is meaningless, feeling so hopeless. I feel that it got to do with my UT grades after I view it. I feel that I have put in a lot of effort in and I still did badly. I don’t blame the UT test is difficult to attempt but I blame myself. I feel that I have not put enough effort in, just need even more. Maybe one day, I might end up with depression.

I don’t feel like talking to anyone for now… feeling moody now (most cancer people are like that, I’m one of them). When I’m feeling moody, it is best that no one come to bother me, otherwise I will be piss of and vent my anger on you. I mean it, try it if you dare, especially my 2 younger bro.

I don’t feel like doing anything for now… including my RJ (which is only half done and the dateline is till tomorrow morning). I decide to set aside the half written RJ and play some games to cool me down (I’m not angry but just feeling sad).


I pluck in my ear piece and on some songs (Kanon and Canon) and hear it continuously while I was playing “Typing of the Dead 2” game. I feel that is really a kind of weird combination, but who cares as long I’m happy with it. While I was playing, my youngest bro come into my room and settle right beside me to watch me play, I’m fine with it. However, he was making so noise and it is really pissing me off, I decide to control and not to quarrel with him. I let him stay until he feels tired and went back to his room and I’m again all alone in the room. After the game, I was feeling much better, although I lost.