Freedom

Since growing up, I never thought of writing a blog or a diary in my life. I really feel uncomfortable letting others to read my feelings and thoughts towards my life. Well, you all may think that I am a low self – esteem person but actually I am not….. I think. However, things seem to change and I decided to write a blog to express all my thoughts and do hopes the rest will not follow the same footsteps that I took before.

Okay, back to the topic. Actually, I have tried to write a diary before but I just can’t put all the feeling and thoughts I have in it. This is because that I know that my family members will look what I have written in the diary. I feel that after they read what I have written, they will eventually know what I am really thinking and thus affecting the way they look at me in the future as I feel that I do not want to change the current relationship I have with them. I have asked myself for the reasons to write a diary or a blog and I find that these are many reasons to it.

Reason 1: Well, it’s just to keep all the memories I had in my life. I am known to have a short term memory so I feel that by keeping all the memories it allow me to remember good and bad things that happen to me before. It also allow me to keep track of what I have done and not allowing myself to do the same mistake and not allowing me to think the same way again as I do not want to let myself feel sadness in my heart again.

Reason 2: Well, it allow me to spill everything out in this blog that happen to me in life. This is because that I like to keep everything to myself and not telling out to others as I feel that I really does not want others to know what I feel. I know that keep everything to ourselves is very painful as things are bottle up in my heart each day and eventually one day it will explode. Writing a blog, allow me to relief myself from the pain that I am suffering now although the way I write may not be also touching but it is surely is from my bottom from my heart.

Oh, well I will write more about how I feel towards things and do hopes tell me what you feel about the things I write.